LAST DAY

Today at Tanjuung

Congrats congrats to all the remnants of student uitmpp yg sitting for final exam today. It's finally the end! My roommate pun alhamdulillah selesai sudah menyelesaikan paper food hygiene dia. So what's left in uitmpp now is degree students and those few diplomas students yang tied up dengan korr activities like LIBK and KARISMA. Best wishes to BKs yang on-trained sekarang ni and also to KARISMA team yg ada tournament kat Kedah, make us proud! HHuu HHaaa!!!*

*That spirit cheers our kesatria commander ajar.lol

Anyway, speaking about my roommate, I just sent her off. Yeap, home alone....... Well, not really home, but you got what I mean.

And now, at last, we're done with everything, from the warming up with university's life, to the back-to-study lifestyle, we got through the assignments, the trips, the game-changer, we mold, we melted, we toughen up and we stand tall. We did just all that. And it was, lol what is other word than amazing? Splendid!

Oh God, if I could turn back time, I wouldn't want it any other way. Everything just fall into their places perfectly. There are still things or flawed here and there about me,about life here, about the relationship I have with people here, but its all about the give and take. How much you, and how much you take. Though I still have the problem with that philosophy in the term to keep it balanced, because, being me, I just don't know the right equation to calculate things and keep it balance. I just didn't know how to stop giving, much less to take. I mean, I don't really want to go deeper in this.

So, book bus ticket, check, book the taxi, check, luggage, 90% check, the mental preparation to go home, ABSOLUTELY CHECK! HECK IT'S BEEN ALMOST 3 MONTHS YO.

I don't want to be over-excited though, keep the hope low about whatever events I'm going to go though there. Because, gosh, this is Selangor we're talking about peeps. The home to all my past, my life awaits me there. I was not the same person I am now. The me there before is not the me here now, and certainly not the me I'm going home with. I don't know how am I going to face my life there. I mean, I'm different now, my appearance is different now. And the life there knows nothing about this. They didn't know about my hijrah, except perhaps that one cousin on Instagram. And guys, tomorrow just happen genap sebulan I berhijrah. I pray to Him for strength to keep on with this. So I'm kinda nervous... I don't know if I'm ready to face the life there. I don't even know why I'm nervous. Lol

And the haze is worsening there right? I'm concerned about that too.

Dear, I am so going to miss it here, bai, lp, nabeyl nasi ayam, cendol belakang uitm. **kesat air mata imaginasi** sobs sobs

Sebulan je kot... Tapi ye la, who knows if ajal got to me first?

'nway, that's all from me this time. Gonna hit the sack earlier tonight, gotta wake up early tomorrow, I hope I can... It'll be disaster if I don't.